Yeah, I'm still here

Going along, minding my own business....working out, cleaning the apartment, eating right, making Marcy do stupid antics cuz I hem her shirts for free, feeling groovy, and then....not so much. It seems like ever since I had my back adjusted and was in pain for two weeks, I've just lost my zeal and my focus. Then I realized this time of year I tend to re-evaluate my life. I think it's the impending birthday next month.

It started out as wanting some down time. I like being alone and recharging my batteries. Being hilarious and entertaining takes some effort, you know. I have perfected one of my crafts, so that was fun for the week. Shopping is so exciting when you actually have a reason to buy a bunch of useless crap! Then it turned into Firefox not working, so I had to use Internet Explorer, which I hate, and had to remember passwords and blah blah blah. So the blog following got off schedule. And I then I no longer cared what people were saying on Twitter. Eating out was too enticing to pass up. The job is...not to be bitched about on the internet. ($#@&*^!) And the gym? Let's not talk about it. *sniff*

I have been trying to practice an attitude of gratitude everyday. I'm trying to remember that what I think about, I bring about. However.....I'm sure even Ghandi got constipation. To sum it up, I shall use my facebook status update for tonight:

thank YOU for the tension headache. (i can practice an attitude of gratitude however i f*cking want)

There is a reason to live, though. NKOTB announced they will do another cruise in May 2010, and the NKOTB Concert Committee just might go this time!!! There's a reason to save money, sell my new little crafty item (yes, i'll blog them), and hit the gym!